I know, I know... more than 1 month has passed since I posted something.

I could start with my usual explanations why I have been absent for so long but I am sure we all know it. Believe me I have missed posting my thoughts into the blogosphere! and how many brainstorms I have had!

Have I mentioned how many things have happened this year, in 2013, and how much I have grow? I m sure we all feel the same, somehow.

As I believe I do have to pratice more gratitude towards life in general I decided to write about 2013 today, since December is the last month of 2013, and because they say we change with our birthday's and not with New Year's Eve and my birthday is coming, let's pratice gratitude and welcome a new charpter of my life! So, sit back, relax and enjoy the gratitude journal as I encourage you to do the same.

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Affff, let me breathe first. There are so many things I am grateful for in my life and in 2013.

It has been a difficult and transforming year for sure with a lot of decisions and feelings inside myself. Doubts, fears, decisions, tears, smiles, lautgher... everything has been here! The road have been difficult lately, I should say but I'm grateful for the obstacules, for the experiences, for the love and for the happiness as well. Everything has made me grow, even though sometimes I can't see it clearly or shortly as I wished.

I am grateful for my family, my friends and my pets - I do appreciate all of them, their well being, health and protection.

I am grateful for being healthy and having a warm place where to sleep at night and be on my own. I do need my personal space specially at night where I can pray, meditate and be on my own with God.

I am grateful for not giving up of anything I believe is for me. This is my weakest point where I can start crying... I have been tested in so many ways along the road (especially because I like to control events, what can happen, what can't happen and most of the time (all the time) it's a waste of time). Those tests I believe life has giving me always give 2 choices, either I'd give up and be rational and someone I am not and not happy or I'd continue following what I believe is for me, for my soul, even though with difficulties and hold on to the faith that everything will come in the right time.

I chose the second. It ressonates with my heart. Is all of who I am.

I have been giving baby leaps of faith, following my heart desires and what I believe God has sent to me. It hasn't been easy, I had doubts, I doubted myself sometimes in the path but I realized that it's part of the process of getting up and getting stronger in our hearts and faith. Sometimes we fall down and everything is apart so that everything will get together one day in the right time, at its own time. Our mission will only be "waiting", which is the most difficult for me. Though I believe within my whole being that when the right time comes everything will be even more amazing that what you have ever dreamed.

So be patient and be grateful. I AM!

I am grateful for travelling all over the world. It is exhausting to do it in a daily basis but gave such an experience: human, social, cultural etc that I could never had if I didn't decide to leave my country 2 years and 6 months ago! I am absolutely grateful for doing so. I am grateful for the courage I had to leave everything behind. Today, I am absolutely different and I prioritize other things. I value quality time and I follow my dreams. I discovered, and still discovering, with who I can count with and who I just can't. Some people will always project themselves and their lives on you "yeah it was the same with me", "oh no, don't do it, come on why should you do it? (about following a dream)".

Well, that's what I believe: even the most insane, crazy or whatever dream you have, if it ressonates with your soul, you better go for it! Really, go for it! I did it... some people didn't understand because it doesn't make sense in their minds. But guess what.... eventually dreams make sense in the heart, not necessarily in the mind at the first sight and not in other people's minds for sure. That why is called MY dream and not YOUR dream. So, seriously, do you have a dream inside the drawer? People around and your friends don't like it? That's their problem... are you harming someone? I guess you are not. The only person you will harm if you don't chase your dream is yourself... don't let yourself die and make yourself happy.

Eventually what happened was that I stop talking about my dream with some friends to realize the ones who were supporting me and giving unconditional love and loving me for what I am and what I want.

 They are the friends I want to keep. And believe me, my dream is only mine. None of them wanted this dream. They just sat and said "ok, go for it" and stand beside me. That's priceless!

They empowered me instead of putting me down.

My flatmate - she is the best ever (and she doesn't know I have a blog and I'm writing about her ehehehe).

Life goes smoothly living with her. There is not even a single sign of headache here, just respect for each other's private space, companionship, friendship and a fabulous harmonious life at home where support at the end of the day is present. I couldn't have better flatmate. I am so grateful I moved 1 year ago!

Dance - always! Dancing as my life, my air, my soul.

Me and my friend/dancer Cris Aysel, made it possible again and we sucessfully had a fantastic festival - East Fest Lisbon Portugal 2013. Oriental dance is getting better and better every year in my country and I am happy I/we can contribute for it every year with the festival. Organizing, teaching, dancing in 3 days is a chaos but a beautiful and fullfilling chaos! Amazing instructors, artists, special guests but above all beautiful people I've met and made my heart full. My performances were quite special for me. I chose particular songs which lyrics I knew and danced with all my heart and soul. Some people felt goosebumps with one of my performances, others almost cried, it was indeed very special and it blew up my heart - to know I am touching other's heart and people can feel what I felt while dancing. Some people personally told me their impressions of it and everything is just so warming and heartfully.... <3 nbsp="" p="">

GRATEFUL. Always.

Grateful as well for my intuition and for all the signs and messages the Divine has been giving me. I am terrible blessed and I am so much grateful for that.
When I less expect a message comes to hold my heart and give me strenght. It is difficult sometimes to deal with my anxiety when I know something really GOOD is in its way but it is a lesson I have to learn, to wait for the right moment/time and honestly, I wouldn't change it for anything. Having faith sometimes is to believe when everything seems unknown. So, here I am. Believing, keeping the faith. Not giving up and trusting.

Happy and trilled for seeing all my friends with babies or pregnants coming to see me in the oriental dance festival. Happy for their beautiful babies that come to the world to bless us with their light and happy to see beautiful families being built based in unconditional love. I'm proud of being your friend and I'm in absolutely joy of seeing such beautiful life projects! I love you ALL <3 comment-3--="">

Absent from the blogsphere for long due intense work, rythm, changes and decisions.

Today I bring some pearls which touched me...

"Quitters never win, winners never quit"

I hope it will inspire you throughout your day as it inspired me and profoundly touched my soul.

Something to remember everyday....

by Laura Silva.

"It's okay to have another cookie, wake up just
a little late, or even skip an exercise
session or two.

But don't ever, ever, EVER...

Question your own abilities.

Let me remind you of the 6 steps to a better you:

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1. Exercise: I also call it getting your heart beat up.
Make sure in the morning you do at least 30 minutes that
pumps you up and makes you feel awake from the inside.

2. Commit to something you think you can't: pick one thing,
only one, which might give a small result but take one thing

3. Imagine you talking to Patrick about it, tell Patrick why you
can't do it. Sit right next to him and have a conversation
with him. Listen to his answers.

4. Visualize your Outcomes: Build an image on your mental
screen of how you would achieve what you desire

5. Take Action: If it is about changing your job, pick your
computer and make that CV. If its relationship, take your
partner out for dinner and talk it out. Start small but START.

6. Celebrate the results: As you would see you would already
start achieving. Now go out and CELEBRATE. It is important,
you have to go out and cherish every second of it."





This message from Laura Silva, the founder of the Silva method, made a special sense to me... I just put in BOLD so the message would get clear, for me and for you! Lately, I 've been questioning my own abilities and believe me - it's not good! Going deep down in not trusting yourself and trusting others instead, believe me, I've been there and it's the WORSE mistake we can make. Anyway... we learn from mistakes, they say, and it's true... I decided to let go, whatever the others say. Even though I wasn't so into what others think sometimes we let people (who we thought to be our friends) speak.
Lately I don't even give space anymore for others (supposed friends once again) to tell me their opinion or know things about me because I realized... most of the people will talk based on their stories, their believes and will not give you a "supportive" word to you in a not judgemental way (unfortunatelly)... they will tell you THEIR story and not yours... so keep away from negativity and follow the 6 steps as I do the same!

Enjoy the ride and listen to your heart... and when it gets noisy (oh, it's so noisy lately...), close your ears, take a deep breathe and smile! You are the master of your own life, nobody else.
Everything will be okay. TRUST.

As one of the most brilliant portuguese authors said once,
We could live without someone, somehow, we could live
but I don't know how.

I can live without you as you can live without me,
somehow,
but I don't know how...

The most heard question directed to me these last days....

"Why are you fasting?"

- Exactly for all the reasons why Muslims are fasting during the Ramadan.
Despite not being a Muslim, fasting is not mandatory to me, though I choose to do it for all the spiritual reasons associated to it!

* To remember those who don't have any (those who are starving)
* To connect with the Source/God/Universe/Yourself
* Control your mind and free yourself from useless thoughts
* Worship 
* Pratice good deeds

Ramadan is for everybody who feels like doing and celebrating it.
It's time to spend with yourself/God and your loved ones and be together to celebrate life and love as God's blessing. This is my way of living Ramadan... and I love it!

 

Second day of Ramadan but still on time to wish you all a blessed Ramadan. 

May God bless our hearts with love and strenght, regardless our religion, nationality or color!

God is ONE only and love us all.

Bellydance class!

For those who don't know Lorna of Cairo, believe me, you are missing a lot! I decided to book 2h private class with her in Cairo 1 month ago to improve my dance skills and I just can say: 2h is not enough!

If you want to see oriental dance from another perspective, if you want to feel it, enjoy it with all your guts then this is for YOU!

Besides being an amazing person, as a teacher she will blow your mind and light up your thoughts about dance!

The words are just not enough to express how AMAZING my 2h class was... so full of joy and a-ha moments! 

After you catch all the information given you realize you are a new dancer!

Mood of the past days...

Just got better today...  I guess some friends energy was required to make me see so many things - real friends! Thank you to them! (Because they know who they ARE, indeed!)

Families & babies

We all have been in that place where our friends and relatives start to have their own families.

Recently, I received with happiness my friend's new baby, another friend's pregnancy and could see another friend's belly getting bigger :)

Is with tremendous happiness and sweetness that I see love being spread into the world through interesting and hearted couples that chose to have their own family.

May God always bless them with health, wealth, happiness, protection and LOVE! 

Have I said how much I love pearls brought by words?
Full of generosity, without fancy status or whatsoever and only brought by heart?

Here are some pearls brought by Don Miguel Ruiz seminar:
* Loving conditionally and unconditionally.
"I love you if... A, B, C" - if you change your behavior, if you change this aspect, if you change... determines that you are loving conditionally someone whilst on the other hand when you love unconditionally, regardless any aspect you may not like, you accept the other person as he/she is.
* By having faith in ourselves we can listen others, perhaps agree or not, but without any judgement we accept the others as they REALLY are with their own truth! because we have our own truth as well. See, truth is relative, what is truth for me may not be for another person because truth is based in what we perceive from the world.
* Truth will set you free! Jesus said.
*Love yourself like God & love each other. Take the poison out of your emotional wounds, it may hurt a bit at the beginning but the truth will set you free. Forgive. Add Love.

* Prayer of love:
"Thank you Creator of the Universe for the gift of life you have given me
Thank you for giving me everything I ever need
Thank you for the opportunity of experience this beautiful body and this wonderful mind
Thank you for living inside me with all your love and your pure and boundless spirit with ur warm and radiante light
Thank you for using my words, for using my eyes, for using my heart to share your love wherever  I go
I love you just the way you are
And because I'm your creation
I love myself as I am (...)"

And I just felt in my heart how much we are an extension of God.

Na verdade, somos uma só alma, tu e eu.
Nos mostramos e nos escondemos tu em mim, eu em ti.
Eis aqui o sentido profundo de minha relação contigo,
Porque não existe, entre tu e eu, nem eu, nem tu. 

RUMI

We are one soul, you and me.

We show and hide ourselves you in me, me in you.

And that's my deepest relationship with you,

Because it doesn't exist, between you and me, neither me or you.

RUMI

In times of darkness and reflection I concluded that something was missing...

CONNECTION.

Pure, Infinite and Divine Connection.

I realized exactly what once I read hours after from another blog (http://wagnerdeluca.blogspot.com/2013/06/afaste-se-de-pessoas-que-lhe-fazem.html * in portuguese).

Here are some conclusions, internally FELT - because knowing in the mind and feeling IT in your guts are two completely different concepts!

- Most of people know exactly what you should do with your life THOUGH if you analize the whole picture they are the first ones who don't even know how to manage their lives.

Everywhere you will hear "You know what? A, B and C and D about this subject!" but honestly... who is the captain of MY life? Yap, it's me. You will hear a bunch of stuff from your friends, family, acquaintances etc but the ONLY person who really knows what to do is just one, YOU! Follow your intuition above all and clean your environment of such toxic people (again, if you are a portuguese speaker please read the article above, it's beautiful and explains exactly what I'm talking about! When I read it I just laughed to myself - yes, that's exactly that I was willing to talk today, I thought to myself).

- Again, I listened to a magic, wonderful and divine seminar today - another Aha! moment of the today proving that I'm not alone and the Universe is guiding me all along. I've spoken already about these seminars I listen to. From different and AMAZING speakers who know (in their guts - once again, inside their hearts) what they are talking about. 

Today this particular seminar blowed my mind! While I was listening I just could say to myself "yes, yes, yes... exactly!!" - Finally, someone understands what I'm feeling and who I'm. Within so many pearls you shouldn't miss to listen those caught me:

* Why should I rely on others opinions and messages if I can connect to my Guides and the Universe to receive those messages which are really for me?

* Allow yourself  to relax at least 5 min a day and ask for Guidance, just ask, because the Universe is ALWAYS there for you. Just ask and allow yourself to relax, just relax, let go of everything, and without judgment just feel what is coming to you. 

Ask and it will be given - I read somewhere...

* Once again, you are the captain of your life. You and ONLY YOU knows what is best for you. 

I got so many insights from this seminar that I can't express all of them by words, so hurry up as the replay ends today. Catch this pearl of divine, pure love that YOU deserve! I couldn't wish more to ALL of YOU!

www.healingwiththemasters.com/audio-replays/

(Eva Gregory reply)

The simple exercise THEOS proposes, of asking what to do, asking for Guidance gave me such insights! It really blowed my mind and HEART!

Open your mind and heart and live your experience.

Much love

To read, absorb, digest, feed your soul... a particular and interesting subject close to my heart lately. When a stone gets in your way what should you do? Throw it? Analize it?
I would say, as in the article, analize it. The stone is there for a reason... analize if the path you are taking is the one you really want. If not turn back, thank the stone and get into the right path.
If it is the right path then analize why the stone still got into your way... maybe it was to show you something. To show you the need of paying attention to something around you, maybe to make you feel that you need to grow up in something or particular issue or you have to fight and change some aspect.
Beautifully written and clear enough to organize your mind and show you the way - of the heart and heaven, always!

I used to think that sometimes when things were going wrong I should turn my back and forget it but since I got more spiritual or into my spiritual being, I should say, I understood that it's not that black and white picture! Actually when something happens it is not always saying to you "turn your back, it's done" rather is saying to you "I need you to see something so you can learn more" and in fact, sometimes, life is just showing you something so you feel more prepared for the BIG steps which are approaching...
So keep your eyes wide open and analize. Above all, feel your heart - it always knows the way.


Article in portuguese:
http://wagnerdeluca.blogspot.pt/2013/05/pedras-no-caminho-devo-chuta-las-ou.html


Blessings & love

Sometimes I tend to forget how far my intuition can go... I wonder for the why´s and how´s to connect with myself and suddenly something happens...

The earth decide to shake around here today... not only did in fact and made a massive destruction in Iran as it gave me an insight about what has been happening in the world.

Today in the afternoon while I was stretching on my bed to wake up at 1pm I felt my bed moving... clearly moving! I was wondering what was happening, if construction was so noisy today and somehow able to make all the building moving. I realized that it wasn´t my imagination working... my bed was moving and my closet now was making sound as moving as well faster and faster...

I jumped quickly out of my bed, I knew an earthquake was happening and I could literally feel my house moving, even if standing up. 

It might last less than 1 minute but for me it was like 2 or 3 minutes.

After the scary moment of earthquake, now the fire alarm was working... it lasted for at least 30 minutes till it stopped. I was relieved I was ok and nothing happened, though I couldn´t stop thinking about the population of Iran and all the suffering they were now going through...

Then I realized that it´s not the first time in less than 2 weeks that the earth is moving here and I deeply felt even during the earthquake that the earth was trying to say something.

I do believe we entered into a new era, called aquarian era - where the old patterns have to vanish and hearts open to love and divine purpose. Somehow during those seconds where I could feel my heart beating fast and the earth moving I felt like the earth was opening a space - energetically speaking. I do accept all the scientific explanations of a earthquake as I studied it as well and it´s part of my academic background but life is much more than science... the earth was opening space to the energy to flow and it wasn´t by chance that it happened around Middle East.

The Universe is wiser than we eventually can understand and despite the pain and suffering this event brought and the scariest moments that people went through and that I personally experienced as well but fortunatelly in less intensity, I do believe that the earth was trying to say something today...

My prayers today go to Iran... who suffered the most intense earthquake of the last 40 years, today.

An article which I truly recommend about higher self:

http://www.loveorabove.com/blog/higher-self/?sr=21&cid=blog%2Fhigher-self%2F&utm_source=facebook&utm_medium=social&utm_campaign=blogpost

Perfectly written, close to the heart of those who seek connection - we all do!

Blessings to all 

EAST FEST LISBON PORTUGAL 2013

For all oriental lovers, the best of oriental dance all-in-one place!

October, 11th - 13th, Lisbon is the place to be!!

www.eastfestportugal.weebly.com

Oriental Dance as a Spiritual path

Many of you should be wonder or ask themselves what do I see or feel when I dance. Good question and simple answer. I feel myself... simple as that. I feel blessed, loved and connected with the Universe. 

I´m not better than anyone else around me and I do not intend to be better than anyone than myself.

Oriental dance is for me the most profound connection and expression I have found along the years. Is my way of living, expressing, BEING... is my spiritual path!

To dance genuinely all dancer has to dance from her/his heart and soul deeply connected to WHO she/he is, accepting to be exposed and transparent to the audience. It´s like being vulnerable and strong on stage.

Many words could be written about the subject - why do I dance, how I feel and why I see it as my spiritual path but as real love one word could define it... FEELING. Once you feel it, you know it!

I declare here my profound and most deep love and respect for oriental dance!

What I usually don´t confess...

I usually don´t speak much about how much blessed I am, but I am. I don´t speak often about my feelings with others, unless they are completely part of my heart and my soul, as few are!

A while ago, while reading a description on ebay of a book I laughed secretly to myself. 

There is definitely a difference between "I know" (because I can imagine) and "I know" (because I´ve been there or experienced X or Y). 

Just GOD knows how much grateful I am for being where I am right now, for all the ups and downs which make me grow so much and realize so many things in my life.

So, for this particular book was written that the story occurs in India, in Calcutta, and immediately I thought to myself that I´ve been there, I´ve experienced situations there, I spoke with the people and I could really feel myself in Calcutta right now. I´ve been there.

Curiously, the book is called "New Life" and I felt like reading it as I´m feeling my life will change sooner.

Everytime something will change in my life I feel a dark side coming up, where fears come from up, down and sides which I can´t recognize as mine. 

I realized it right now - my darkest phase is exactly predicting that - that something good will appear soon!

To make our hearts FULL of LOVE in this month of February and ahead.... 

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rtOvBOTyX00

Collapse day/night

There is something absolutely extraordinary about our bodies... They allow us to feel everything, yes, absolutely everything and make us stop when the cup is getting full of garbage!

In a normal day after coming out from dinner with my friend my body gave me a "wake up call" to stop my anxiety... I almost fainted, I went through 2 painful hours of dizziness, sweating, vomiting where nothing came out. It was like having a circuit breaker, my body said "enough - you have to stop". Everytime something like this happens I understand that something is not going well in my life. My body brings to my consciousness what I couldn´t see or was blocking in my heart. It´s like my soul and heart struggling to make me see something and I don´t allow.... till a point that they have to say to my body "can you wake her up?"

And my essence is a master in doing that, when I get into one point where my heart is exploding of not being heard then my body takes good care of waking me up! Always or almost without a reason I almost faint and I face a nightmare.... after that I feel relieved.... everything is ok....

I´m thankful and grateful for being who I am. Thank you.

PS. For those who are wondering if it was just or only food poisoning, I checked - it was not!

Written a couple of weeks ago...

At the end of the day what matters is where you return to.
At the end of the day what matters is a place where you can call home - a place where your heart feels like home.
At the end of the day what matters is a heart full of love.
At the end of the day what matters is only love... only love.
And so I finish my blessed day, sleepy like never, desperate to sleep in a comfy bed, today in Italy - where nothing makes me more happy than having a good night sleep...

I have been wondering how much time I´ve been absent from my lovely blog!
I do miss it a lot... writting, sharing information with all of you without wanting anything in return - oh yeah, I do believe part of you already got fed up of "trying" to follow my post´s as I´ve been so absent - sorry for that! Technological problems and lack of time have been the main issues I´ve faced here...

To make everything clear or everyone updated a LOT of things have happened, of course! As I mentioned I´ve attended a lot of on line seminars/lectures lately and shared some pearls with all of you.
Such food for the soul can not be hidden!

So many good stuff is out there that the biggest advice I can give is to Listen and take what suits you! Some authors may not suit you or you might not agree with them. It´s fine... just take what suits you! If you take at least one idea from each seminar, at least for me, I feel like I gained something already!

So far, some seminars which have some authors´name it has my vote already!
For example, Panache Desai... I can garantee you, if something contains his name, I´m there! I´ve registered already to listen to his words. His energy is absolutely amazing, it opens your heart with such wisdom and light that no other does! I do recommend him!!

Pearls of wisdom are food for my soul...

 

As I dive more and more in myself, feeling a greater peace within me for giving myself time to be just ME I listen to pearls of wisdom.
The meaning of resistance beautifully explained:
Your left hand is your resistance to negative emotions and energy you might be feeling
Your right hand is exactly what you want to feel or to do or to be
If you hold each hand against the other what it happens? Your left hand doesn't go further because your right hand doesn't allow it, right? So, what it happens is that your left hand will try to push the right hand more and more (because you really don't want to feel those negative emotions) and apply more energy into it and the right hand will always stand there saying "You can't". And then you realize, what am I feeding anyway? If  the left hand has to apply more strenght - you don't want negative emotions in your life - then, you are not directing your energy to what it matters! You are just resisting with your left hand the things you don't want to feel, giving it more and more energy! Instead, we should apply the energy to the right hand, giving energy to be who we truly are and stop resisting the negative emotions. It's ok if they exist from time to time, don't try to resist them! Feed your right hand instead with this powerful energy of who you are! Stop resisting and start being YOU!

Everytime a negative thought comes, pull off the car, park it and don't let it define you! If something comes, STOP, don't entertain the negative thought, don't enter the negative dialogue.  Drop the thought which wants to carry you. Wake up, become fully present and release it!

Whatever is in our way, is part of the Way. Do not give up, miracles do exist!

I always had huge expectations about New Year's Eve.  It always had to be amazing....
Till I changed my life and myself. One year ago I spent it in Dhaka, Bangladesh looking to the sky, feeling empty and blessed at the same time. This last New Year's Eve I spent it in Doha and to be honest I couldn't be more happier. I didn't plan absolutely anything. I just went with the flow and left all the stress I had in the past to arrange a good plan of new year's eve. I left the plans. That's right. The thing is - I left all the plans and I let life to guide me nowadays. So, it was very comfortable for me to don't decide at all what to do and just stay.... So, I spent my last new year's eve with one friend. We had a delicious dinner, we laughed, spoke about life with each other and with our families back home and we said to each other a simple "Happy New Year". No fireworks, just a calm atmosphere surrounding us. I think I just realized like EVER that I prefer to be in a calm place with good friends just enjoying ourselves than in a crowded place - the truth is that I always ran away of it!!
So, I welcomed 2013 having tea in a coffee shop while listening music and speaking with a friend of mine - girls talking about life's general things!

Wish you all a fantastic 2013 full of JOY, INNER PEACE, LOVE, LOVE, LOVE, HEALTH AND PROTECTIONS - always.

Blessings to ALL

1st post of the year - renewing our FAITH in life and all the blessings

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Coming back in a while to write more about my New Year's Eve.... sleeping time for me now <3 br="br">