Love one another and you will be happy.  It’s as simple and as difficult as that.  ~Michael Leunig

Love is the condition in which the happiness of another person is essential to your own.  ~Robert Heinlein

We loved with a love that was more than love.  ~Edgar Allan Poe

There is something that I really don't like and it is prejudice. The cheaper one and the most rich form of being prejudiced. I seriously don't like it from my heart. Everytime someone says something related to it I can't do more than be quiet and don't give a word about the subject. Of course people always realize that I don't like it because I stay quiet and don't feed their prejudice... how can I feed something which I don't agree with? It's impossible! If you plant good seeds you get good crops and I prefer to plant LOVE than prejudice in this world!

Is it so difficult to achieve/understand?! Or am I the only person in this world who doesn't like prejudice?

The days have been passing by so quickly and slowly at the same time...

I'm working a lot, learning everyday more and more about life and taking one step at a time to open my heart. If I look 2011 since the first month of the year I have to admit that today I'm more than yesterday and I'm sure tomorrow I'll be better and hopefully lighter than today.

In the first months of the year I was dealing with doubts and fears which I got over with. I also was dealing with my balance, I felt completely apart the first months of the year without knowing what to do about my life and my heart. I went to Barcelona and experienced a beautiful dance festival and in April I was having the best festival ever in my hometown with such beautiful people. Apart from all financial situation the second East Fest Lisbon, organized by me and a dearest friend was a huge sucess and spiritually beautiful! I met friends for a life, I huged people I love and are special and important for me!

In June I made more difficult decisions in my life. I was with my man and I moved to Doha, without knowing what expected me. I definitely changed the certain for the uncertain, without any doubt. I cried, I laughed and I still do the same every day because I'm human. I feel homesick many times and at home in Doha at the same time. I miss deeply my friends, my family, my pets, my love but in my heart I am exactly where I should be and none of these people is missed or forgotten by my and my heart. Everywhere I go I think about my loved ones, everything I see in a new country I think about how much they would like to see this or that and somehow this is what make me alive. It's never easy to change, but it's possible and most of the time I am very happy because I did it. I realized that, once in life, I seriously did something for me.... I faced all my fears! Despite all the dark moments I have been going through I have to be glad for being here and facing the dark corners of myself because it's the only way to became brighter and reborn!!

I'm boucing between the connection with the Universe (and myself) and the ego, taking one step at a time to the heart and happiness, between the signs I receive and are for me and the silly thinking of saying to myself that this is not happenning... I'm going everyday to the only place where I am total, perfect and unit, to my heart! 

And my heart lives also where everbody I love lives.

PS: Finally I have laptop... :)

The meaning of RESPECT

Lately I'm thinking a lot about the meaning of RESPECT. I can be taken as a dramatic person in these kind of matter but in fact life has showed me the meaning of respect in such different situations...

I've seen a LOT of life, a LOT about RESPECT and for me RESPECT is much more of being polite.
For me RESPECT means that you ACCEPT other's decisions and choices even if you don't agree with them. It's THEIR choice, If it hurts us it's OUR choice but we should RESPECT, above all, that in the same proportion we deserve respect regarding our choices, we should also respect other's.

Dear readers (I have no idea if with my ausence I still have readers??!!),

I have been ausent from my blogger because my laptop decide to retire from its tiring job of being MY laptop and working constantly. I tried to fix it, I must admit, according to my father's instructions, and even a woman-man like me couldn't repair my poor laptop so it decided to retire... and so I decided to send it to my country to someone who can really take care of it. Anyway, just to let you know I have a LOT of things to write, many feelings, many situations to express but till I buy a new laptop - hopefully in the end of the month - I'll be out of writing.

Isn't it beautiful? :)

Delicious cold, fantastic view and the will of sharing it with all my LOVE to you.

And another song I adore:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?NR=1&v=RDRwqTNLGDs

Feeling so much woman lately... stronger and growing up so much in my life. Having sure that some situations are NOT for us at all and let them go is one of the wisest decisions we can take.

Make you feel my LOVE, beautifully sang by Adele:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LLoyNxjhTzc&ob=av2n

Feeling good...

Lately I'm feeling good about my past decision of moving country. Today, 4 months after my moving I look back and I realized how much I gained coming here. I'm loosing a LOT of good things in my country too. One of my dearest friends just got married and another is pregnant and despite feeling sad everytime I think I didn't share these beautiful moments of happiness (wedding and official annoucement of the pregnancy), I'm proud of myself for my decision.

I left my country without any kind of expectation. I left everything behind indeed. My family, friends and my beautiful babies (pets). I headed off to a uncertain future and there's nothing that scares us more than not knowing the future. Despite everything I did it. I did it alone and I'm so proud of myself!

This was one of my biggest adventures, my BIG challenge and I did it. 

I felt so much fear and I overcame it... facing it!

Looking back, today, I can see, that I'm a new person. More simple, more human and who really appreciate more than EVER true love. If I was in my country right now, I would be frustrated, unsatisfied, probably without a job and complaining to myself everyday why many things were happening or happened in my life.

I'm really proud of myself for all I achieved till now and for the best that is yet to come!

Missing those GOOD moments that taste like HEAVEN...

Dancing oriental dance under the rain...

Sleeping with the MAN of my heart

Laughing with friends

Kissing my dogs and cats

Being with my family

Smelling my mum's food

Listening to the rain falling outside and having my cat next to me

Missing... everything GOOD that life contains...

Me and books - a love affair!

... and what do I buy in India?! Books! Books and a sari. But above all books, my eternal love affair!

(Even if I'm running out of space for all the books and music I'm buying around the world... I can not say NO to a book, I can not say NO to my heart!)

Being in different places in a short period of time can be quite exciting and challenger as well as tiring.

If I look deep to my October agenda I can see a lot of different places which gave me beautiful experiences in my journey. Amazing collegues, some very sweet, others crazy whom made you laugh like crazy. All part of the experience, for sure. All these experiences are like lessons which makes me realize what my heart feels right now. You can not be happy without love. Just IT. Without LOVE nothing has meaning. And this love can be seen in so many different ways and expressions daily.

My last days and experiences made me realize what is in front of my eyes.
Another day I went with a friend to have dinner in one of our favourite restaurants near our house. We love the food, very well cooked, we love the people there who know us and always spoil us giving us more bread and attention! We love to go there.
As always we ate too much till our belly become a autentic ballon and we end up our dinner with a tea and a turkish coffee... I felt like taking a turkish coffee that day and for fun I asked if they could read my future through the coffee. They manage to find someone there, turkish man, who read my future in the little cup where I drank my coffee.
The most amazing thing was turning the cup down and when I removed it for the reading I saw the coffee in the plate drawing a simple heart. The best was yet to come when the gentleman read my future. I must say he doesn't know anything about me, my personal life, my feelings, absolutely nothing and yet what he said made all the sense. I felt it like another sign from above!

After this episode, I headed off to India for work where I went to buy a beautiful sari. I went with some collegues and when I was trying my future-sari-to-be, one of them said "you know, you just reminded me about the movie Eat, Pray, Love". You look like the woman from the movie. What she just doesn't know is that, as the woman from the movie, even I I'm looking for my inner peace. We all are, after all.

After these episodes I realized how blessed I am, how much I'm loved by the Universe and how many signals I'm receiving from all the places, from all the people around me and how, sometimes, I try to not see it. Sometimes it drives me crazy the way I'm sleeping and don't see it!!

Anyway, these ones were particularly clear for me. I really felt they were there for me because I needed to see, to feel, to know the meaning of my life. I needed to FEEL that hope and faith and love once again just to remind my cells of who I am! (I think my being just falls asleep sometimes)

Everything is going to be alright, my love is coming and I'm unit just the way I am.

Diving into music every second of my life

I spend my day listening to music while at home. I listen music, I taste the music, I feel the music and I'm the music. I do not just listen but I dive into it, I taste it and I show it with my heart to the world whilst I dance.

I love music and sometimes I don't even know how to separate the music and me. We are one together. 

A love affair happening at the present moment.

And then, sometimes, my music is silence.

Just silence. And it feels so much good and feeds my heart and soul fully.

The music is also my friend's and family's voice caring for me. Embracing me.

Music is also the voice of the man I love and miss.

Healing my heart with... music!

Once I read, when you become more human you become a real dancer! If you live your life at the fullest, enjoying every minute of happiness and sadness then you are fully rich within yourself and you have more to give to others. You have more to dance.

Life is made of little details and little moments 

While living and working in a Middle Eastern conservative country I found myself thinking about a lot of concepts of life.

Facing the crude/nude reality, I found myself paying attention to details I may never thought about it. I see a lot of rude but also nice and very polite people who respect you (thank God!).

I found myself appreciating things I took as normal in my daily life and I definitely see love and life in another perspective. I found myself being more simple in some aspects, I see myself being more human and patient as I never thought I was. And the more I give/receive more humble I become.

It's not because I sleep in a 5 stars hotel that I'm going to be rude. It's because I sleep in a 5 stars hotel that I should be more human... because I see the world, I see humanity, I see it with my heart what may be hidden from the other's eyes/souls. I do not sell my soul to a 5 stars hotel. Stars we see in the sky.

Enjoying the best and the worst of my experience, I cry and laugh and try to dissolve my ego in love when it makes me think that I´m fine when my heart is bleeding...

So, today, I cried to start to dissolve my fears and ghosts so I can feel my heart. Tomorrow a new day arises and I thank God for surrounding me by good people, who cares for me deeply and are with me with all their hearts and their souls.

Tomorrow I'll start to dissolve what doesn't belong to me anymore and be happy. Tomorrow. Thank you Universe. I Love YOU! I feel I'm not alone anymore, the clouds are going away and YOU are supporting me in every up and down I have! Now, I can feel it despite knowing you were always here for me/my heart/my soul.