I'm miles from where you are
I lay down on the cold ground
I, I pray that something picks me up
And sets me down in your warm arms

Snow Patrol



Yes, I love music. And I feel sick today. Too much coffee made some damage in my body for sure. And I don't like coffee. It was just a desperate way to be awake.
And I'm terribly tired... from everything. Everyone has their ups and downs and today I'm tired, that's all. I'm really tired.

Tired it's not the word

Today I'm sooooo tired that all my body seems to be uncomfortable about being awake. I studied till 5.30am and woke up today at 12pm... hum, 6.5h of sleep... not my average but that's ok. I need to make an effort to stay awake so I can study more.

I'm definitely tired but I'm confident that I will achieve my goals or at least I'm trying to believe because I'm so tired so tired so tired that I'm just running on empty without logical thougths. That's what I need: focus, to do the exercises! ... And some coffee please.

One of the best things that I really enjoy after a show is to take time for me to clean all my make up. It's like a ritual, when, in silence, I can reflect about my day and about my performance. In silence. And how I love that silence... and that peace.

I found myself.

Today, after a show I was with a great friend of mine (also a dancer. I just danced because of her, 'cause she told me "Filipa you will dance!", "Do I have a choice?", "Hmmm... not really").

We were discussing about dance (what else?!) and we laugh a lot...

Can you imagine two crazy women discussing in a car about dance for about 2hours? It's not a surprise but we were tired (well, at least she was because she spent all day dancing!).

When I got home I cooked, ate, took a shower and voilá I'm ready to sleep now although my mind is still working on new ideas... and singing Ana Moura's song.