There's no sunset like in Cairo

There's no starry sky like in Portugal

There's no waffles like in Ghent

There's no love like real love

Music, music, music... filling my soul these last days while I work hard and try to be apart of some melancholy.

Beyond that I'm totally on fire with some news!! T-o-t-a-l-l-y!!


"Cry in the rain
Nothing to say
Lately I wonder
Who you are today
I know all about you
But I don't understand
Why you won't see me
Why things have changed

Oh baby something is going on
God knows I know

Cus you can't keep nothing from me
Cus I know what I've seen now
You can try your best to deceive
But I know where you've been now
And you can cry your heart out to me
But it's hard to believe
Don't call this love

I might be no good
In your eyes only
But one day you'll see that
I was good for you honey
You need to grow up
Get your life together
We can't go on now
Doing this to each other

Oh baby something is going on
God knows you know

(...)"

Today I'm kind of dyslexic.

In my dance classe I said to my students "right" when I wanted to say "left" and vice-versa... and so on... huummm... we all ended up laughing (of course!) but I think this has a word: tiredness!

Well, I have been working hard it's true but I didn't want to feel this tiredness at all (who wants?). Today I slept like a bear, and since my weekend I just know to sleep like a bear!! Tomorrow it will be different, I know that :)

More news:
Show: East Fest 2010 in Casa do Artista, Lisbon! More infos at the website...

Interview!! I was interviewed to talk about the East Festival in Portugal! Burrrr I really don't like to talk that much but that's it. It was great!!!! Let's see If I can hear myself talking in the radio... I really don't like to hear and see me.

I'm preparing workshop and dance solos now.

Preparing my heart and soul to be exposed.

Organizing my life (finally!!). Making decisions, changing rules, changing plans and seeing to much planes (I'm totally flying in my goals). I like my chameleon side!

Thank You God for giving me Wisdom to realize that at least I'm trying to do something with my life. I'm taking some control, We are taking some control. Thank You for being part of Me.

Love. Peace. Wisdom.

All kind of art like music, dance and painting mean something more than reality.

It's a process where you search, find and communicate with God, Universe, Allah. All Divine Energy.

It was a pleasure to be part of an audience yesterday night.

"The whirling dervish dance originated in Konya, Turkey, inspired by the songs and teachings of the poet Mevlana Jalaluddin Rumi, who lived from 1207-1273. Rumi was a Sufi, a branch of Islam that started in the 8th century. Sufis assert that through their religion they are brought closer to the heart of all modes of belief. Rumi himself was moved to begin dancing in dervish fashion after meeting a holy man known as Shems of Tabriz. The dance, in which he spun incessantly, was done in devotion to Allah and the organic powers of the universe. While he whirled, he repeated the name of god – la illa-ha illa' llah – until he fell into a trance state of deep worship.

Terms
The whirling dervish is known as a Semazen. Dervish itself means doorway to god or enlightenment. Sufism is derived from the word for a rough, woolen cloak, its material designed to diminish the superficial pleasures of worldly existence. Mevlevis are the order of Sufis that perform the whirling dervish dance, refered to as the Sema. The leader of the group is called the Sheikh; he often stands in the middle of the room, representing the sun, while the other members dance around him in imitation of the cycles of the planets. The repetition of god's name is the Zikr.

Dervish Clothes
Whirling dervishes sport a conical hat and a white shirt and skirt. The skirt is made of billowing material that flows out and around the dancer as they spin. The headgear symbolizes the need to seal off one's ego in order to connect to god and the universe. The skirt represents a shroud but also the sky, which is revealed as the dancer removes their black cloak and begins the journey towards spiritual enlightenment."

By worlddance.suit101.com

And after that you don't want to go there?

Tired and feeling sick

I'm used to do everything by myself and alone. Lately, I forget to breathe and I'm running on empty and sometimes, sometimes, I miss some support. I can't complain because I never ask for help and people don't guess what I need... but sometimes, I wish it wasn't necessary to say anything at all...

Despite my "sickness" (or alergy symptoms) I'm (still) replying (or trying to..) all tasks that I have to do. Afterwards I hope to feel a litle bit free. I'm sure I will. I just need to organize some stuff (and rest!).

I'm almost voiceless due my constant cough... Things will get better. I will fill my body with vitamins, hours of rest and my heart and soul with good energies and good thoughts.

Oh I need to meditate!

Om Shanti Om

"They built the railway before the existence of the train because they knew... that one day... the train would come."

The train will come.

Metaphorically I love this one.

Saw this in a movie.

Brilliant.

Completely Om Shanti Om mood. Can books fill my soul? Let's try :)

Looking forward for an oportunity

All options are considered in this one.

Thoughts are running through my mind, and my heart and my soul...

hmmm...

I'm also trying to deal with my agenda and all tasks that I have to be done. I'm just a simple person and the day has 24h (just 24h!!!). I think I need a clone...

"Take it easy"- he said to me.

"I will"

And I'm trying to :)

With my incense, my books and God.

Om Shanti Om

Today was one of that days where I got home and needed oxygen to breathe.

Despite my busy busy busy day and all tiredness I was feeling, I found strength in me.

I allowed myself to try to lay down on a chair (?)and I just fell down into the floor where I could found some earth energy. I found strength while I was breathing deeply.
I think I was talking to God too, saying through my thoughts how I was tired but how I was happy too because I still could recognize strength in me.

Thank You God for this day, full of news, full of noise, full of everything because it reminds me, always, that I need peace and to slow down sometimes. Thank You for you wisdom.

Where is your heart? Where is your mind? Where is your soul?

When I was with my cousin on holidays I had a moment where I said:

- "I'm sorry. Could you repeat? I was far far away now..."
- "Where is your mind?" she asked.
- "I don't know exactly, maybe is everywhere, I don't know..."

My mind is everywhere solving problems and solving problems. I have so much to do!
My heart is far far away and inside my cage too (I realized it now! It can be in 2 different points at the same time... hummm).
My soul is growing every time I allow myself to be happy.

Peace. Peace. Happiness!
I want to go to Egypt... again.

Reading and spirituality mood

I'm very proud to say that my table is full of books.

I feel that my heart needs wise words and all my soul needs peace.

I need peace. We all need peace.

I'm reaching this path.

Always looking for it

(please don't stop looking for your peace, for your soul, for your heart. Don't give up on you)...

I'm a soul of peace. I'm a soul of love.

And you are too. You just need to find it :)

OM SHANTI OM

Life in the Jungle

Life without love is like life in the jungle. What is life like in the jungle? You are constantly afraid of what might come to you. You are isolated, not receiving any support from anywhere.

Desires

Desires are not the problem

Satisfying them is

God says: tell me all your desires and I will fullfil them

But people don't do this

They turn to others expecting someone else to fullfil them

Expectations are another kind of desire

Expecting to be praised, or recognized, or approved of

are the signs of little spiritual accomplishment

Over time, this will deplete you

Your work will turn superficial, for namesake only

and you will be distanced from the true blessings of others

God's pure desire is that we now become like Him

Our only desire should now be that, too.

(My beautiful and beloved) Dadi Janki

Even in crowded places

you can find peace.

Look within.

Don't forget, look within.

And breathe, deeply.

You are a soul of peace.

Om Shanti Om

I returned to my country, after my trips, this month and sometimes I think that I didn't return at all...

I still have my mind in some places... Oh, new places, new people, new ways of expression!

Don't get me wrong, it's wonderful to have a home, a place where I feel totally comfortable but... there's always a but, I love to get to know other worlds besides mine.

And maybe I'm escaping from some feelings which are inside my heart and I can't control... maybe... we never know anything at all.

I just know that I'll work. I'll make an tremendous effort to achieve my goals. And I decided with conviction one of them today. To work hard, no matter what.

I should focus on it. Just it...

?!

Should I?

East Fest 2010

To sum up my week:

- I'm still trying to figure out the next step (although I already took some decisions);

- I'm still flying high wondering how I would like to be living abroad;

- I'm still trying to find out what I really want to do with my life (huumm...) but I'm doing everything step by step. One thing at a time!
The best of all: all options are considered

- I am really really tired and my weekend will be full of tasks to do! Work, study, work, have dinner with some friends, one interview and work again! Well, I will take some time to sleep like a lazy person in this weekend, I don't know how but I really need it!
Time to Love?! All the time... to love life and dance! But now... time to sleep. I can't wait to lay down, read just for a while and sleep, sleep, sleep!

As my therapist said today "I think you are closing a chapter and opening a new one".
I couldn't agree more!