Re-organization mode 'cause I really need it NOW

Receiveing little gestures that fills my heart in my daily life. Sometimes just a simple smile or a simple word can open your heart and fill you peacefully, sometimes even from unexpected people.

Feeling sick. Because the liver is, according to traditional chinese medicine, the organ of emotions and I may be too stressed and running to much lately... and today my liver expressed it self through nauseas and I could barely eat! So, time to breathe, take a deep breath and take care of me. I mean, really taking care of myself. Being in silence because silence heals everything and I need to be quiet some days to balance what it's not balanced at all.

I usually have difficult asking for help when I need it. And I know there's nothing wrong about asking others' help, it's not a sign of weakness and I know that. Lately I'm feeling that I need help but at the same time all the things that I have to do just can be done for me so it takes me to another question: what's your priority? And because I woke up sick today I'm trying to remember what is really consuming my energy lately to put me like this...

A honest hug

Today I dedicate this post to my beautiful (female) friend who gave me the most honest and truth hug today.

Thank you.

I needed that :)

PS: Yeah I'm already crying like a baby just because I said how important you are/were today. This is the kind of things that every people should expect from me. I even cry when I'm happy!

But I'm normal too ok? Ahahahah

How I feel inside my soul - today

I know that I worth, I know my values and I know my heart.

I'm a good person and I feed my heart and other's heart with love and joy.

I don't need to prove anything because truth always comes up in the right time if you allow yourself to see it.

So, today I just want to say that I'm not trying to prove anything about who I am because you don't want to see me or know me deeply. Today, I'm not trying to control anything. Today I'm just living the PRESENT.

Today, I decided to take time to breathe.

Once was said happiness is a good book and a cup of coffee

(let's be happy with books and forget the coffee!)

Once a wise man said if you need to throw away some stones do it just don't keep the fury inside you

Once I read if the flower is the problem, cut the flower, even if it is an amazingly beautiful one

Once I read you can't keep the sand in your hands if you close them. The sand will disappear. Leave your hands open instaed and you will receive more

Once I read/felt one day you will understand that nobody can't cut your wings

Once I read/felt 1st you need to be happy with you, after that you are ready to be happy with others

Enjoying music as part of me

So, OK I'm going to admit this, I found one music that found me and reminded me how I was and how I am today (after my highest point of depression, when I realized that I just needed to be me and to accept me with love and total respect. I realized that I don't need walls, bridges or whatever in order to avoid being rejected. We all just need to TRUST, being UNIT and LOVE.
I don't have more scars today.)


"I know that the bridges that I've burned
Along the way
Have left me with these walls and these scars
That won't go away
And opening up has always been the hardest thing
Until you came

So lay here beside me just hold me and don't let go
This feelin' I'm feelin' is somethin' I've never known
And I just can't take my eyes off you
And I just can't take my eyes off you

I love when you tell me that I'm pretty
When I just wake up
And I love how you tease me when I'm moody
But it's never too much
I'm falling fast but the truth is I'm not scared at all
You climbed my walls

So lay here beside me just hold me and don't let go
This feelin' I'm feelin' is somethin' I've never known
And I just can't take my eyes off you
And I just can't take my eyes off you

Off you
Off you


So lay here beside me just hold me and don't let go
And oh..this feelin' I'm feelin' is somethin' I've never known
And I just can't take my eyes off you
And I just can't take my eyes off you"

Filling and coloring the days

Filling my soul with fado and returning to my beloved bossa nova because I listened today on radio one of my favourite Brazilian songs and couldn't enjoy more!

What I listened today: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mE4QIDbGS9c

(I know I'm going to love you...)

Another version with english subtitles: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=x6ToqVt68sE

Fado with the beautiful Ana Moura: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MbAzAMZtae0&feature=channel

(I really enjoyed the quality of the music/video here)

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3eIArfecr8k

Adorable! The richness of the lyrics... divine!

I've been away for some time due an important exam that took all my time, patience, strength... and Summer...

I've been away of the world to concentrate just on my study (only!!)

Now, I'm back to normal and hopefully, I'll take my life back & take the risks I want to take (hopefully, again!).

I'm feeling dizzy, lost and anxious and NOW I can really understand what my therapist said to me once. One chapter is closing... why I'm sooooo lost?? Oh well... this is getting confuse!

I should admit, I'm not feeling in my days lately but I'm trying to be calm to look within.
I could realize how much I was fallin' apart by my breathing, not so relaxed as it use to.

I will take some time off to be quiet, in silence and to define my new next challenges - I'm always doing that!! My reality, the Universe, GOD, are showing me that I NEED to CHANGE, SOMETHING has to CHANGE! And I can't forget that because my HEART feels the same and we never, ever, should ignore our inner signs.

'Cause life has to be lived today and not tomorrow!

New addictions: my books!

I'm in a reading mode lately. After "A golden age" from the brilliant Tahmima I'm already reading "I loved you by your voice" from Sélim Nassib. It tells the story of Oum Khalthoum, the most famous singer of all times in her country, so often called the mother of Egypt.

I'm just in the beginning of the book but I'm already enjoying every page and tasting every word. For those who love or are interested in Egyptian culture (especially belly dancers) I definitely recommend it as well!

Once was said: Happiness is a good book and a cup of coffee

I couldn't agree more but I'm still in doubt in the case of coffee... eheh.

The last book I read worths every page: A golden age from Tahmima Anam.

You can check more here:

http://www.tahmima.com/

I think it's a great story that involves the reader. One of the main issues is the Bangladesh war, so I found it very interesting and informative and I read it very quickly!

I recommend it for sure!

Feeding my soul, feeding my heart and giving me time to breathe:

Enjoying from the button of my heart: Healing!

The importance of a simple gesture, the importance of a smile in other's/our lives.

It reminds me what a woman said to me this night

Thank you for your kindness.

I almost could feel and see the color of her words blowing and warming the air.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Tug63dI4MEY&feature=player_embedded#!

This evening instaed of studying I've watched some videos from youtube where I found some about one of the most famous medium/spiritualist in my country, Portugal.
She spoke about her last book and I must admit that through all things she said about her spiritual journey and situations she experienced my heart itself experienced also such a joy!

I agree with her when she says that we don't say thank you for the blessings that we have.
We always complain about everything and when we do that we can't see the blessings about to come. I agree.

I also agree that there are "coincidences" that happen in our lives (and YES, I totally agree with this one) because it's suppose to happen! because it is for us... and when you feel your heart jumping and fullfilled, don't worry. You are not having a heart attack, you're feeling what is meant for you and what is for you is always bigger, divine, light, entire.

About this context I should say: THANK YOU.
For giving me YOUR/MY blessings.

I'm feeling free, light, peaceful and happy after realized it - sometimes some things aren't for us because what is for us is waiting, we just need to trust!