Saturday, 29 October 2011

Missing those GOOD moments that taste like HEAVEN...

Dancing oriental dance under the rain...

Sleeping with the MAN of my heart

Laughing with friends

Kissing my dogs and cats

Being with my family

Smelling my mum's food

Listening to the rain falling outside and having my cat next to me


Missing... everything GOOD that life contains...

Friday, 28 October 2011

Me and books - a love affair!


... and what do I buy in India?! Books! Books and a sari. But above all books, my eternal love affair!

(Even if I'm running out of space for all the books and music I'm buying around the world... I can not say NO to a book, I can not say NO to my heart!)
Being in different places in a short period of time can be quite exciting and challenger as well as tiring.

If I look deep to my October agenda I can see a lot of different places which gave me beautiful experiences in my journey. Amazing collegues, some very sweet, others crazy whom made you laugh like crazy. All part of the experience, for sure. All these experiences are like lessons which makes me realize what my heart feels right now. You can not be happy without love. Just IT. Without LOVE nothing has meaning. And this love can be seen in so many different ways and expressions daily.

My last days and experiences made me realize what is in front of my eyes.
Another day I went with a friend to have dinner in one of our favourite restaurants near our house. We love the food, very well cooked, we love the people there who know us and always spoil us giving us more bread and attention! We love to go there.
As always we ate too much till our belly become a autentic ballon and we end up our dinner with a tea and a turkish coffee... I felt like taking a turkish coffee that day and for fun I asked if they could read my future through the coffee. They manage to find someone there, turkish man, who read my future in the little cup where I drank my coffee.
The most amazing thing was turning the cup down and when I removed it for the reading I saw the coffee in the plate drawing a simple heart. The best was yet to come when the gentleman read my future. I must say he doesn't know anything about me, my personal life, my feelings, absolutely nothing and yet what he said made all the sense. I felt it like another sign from above!

After this episode, I headed off to India for work where I went to buy a beautiful sari. I went with some collegues and when I was trying my future-sari-to-be, one of them said "you know, you just reminded me about the movie Eat, Pray, Love". You look like the woman from the movie. What she just doesn't know is that, as the woman from the movie, even I I'm looking for my inner peace. We all are, after all.

After these episodes I realized how blessed I am, how much I'm loved by the Universe and how many signals I'm receiving from all the places, from all the people around me and how, sometimes, I try to not see it. Sometimes it drives me crazy the way I'm sleeping and don't see it!!

Anyway, these ones were particularly clear for me. I really felt they were there for me because I needed to see, to feel, to know the meaning of my life. I needed to FEEL that hope and faith and love once again just to remind my cells of who I am! (I think my being just falls asleep sometimes)

Everything is going to be alright, my love is coming and I'm unit just the way I am.

Saturday, 15 October 2011

Diving into music every second of my life

I spend my day listening to music while at home. I listen music, I taste the music, I feel the music and I'm the music. I do not just listen but I dive into it, I taste it and I show it with my heart to the world whilst I dance.
I love music and sometimes I don't even know how to separate the music and me. We are one together. 
A love affair happening at the present moment.
And then, sometimes, my music is silence.
Just silence. And it feels so much good and feeds my heart and soul fully.
The music is also my friend's and family's voice caring for me. Embracing me.

Music is also the voice of the man I love and miss.
Healing my heart with... music!

Once I read, when you become more human you become a real dancer! If you live your life at the fullest, enjoying every minute of happiness and sadness then you are fully rich within yourself and you have more to give to others. You have more to dance.




Life is made of little details and little moments 

While living and working in a Middle Eastern conservative country I found myself thinking about a lot of concepts of life.
Facing the crude/nude reality, I found myself paying attention to details I may never thought about it. I see a lot of rude but also nice and very polite people who respect you (thank God!).
I found myself appreciating things I took as normal in my daily life and I definitely see love and life in another perspective. I found myself being more simple in some aspects, I see myself being more human and patient as I never thought I was. And the more I give/receive more humble I become.
It's not because I sleep in a 5 stars hotel that I'm going to be rude. It's because I sleep in a 5 stars hotel that I should be more human... because I see the world, I see humanity, I see it with my heart what may be hidden from the other's eyes/souls. I do not sell my soul to a 5 stars hotel. Stars we see in the sky.

Enjoying the best and the worst of my experience, I cry and laugh and try to dissolve my ego in love when it makes me think that I´m fine when my heart is bleeding...
So, today, I cried to start to dissolve my fears and ghosts so I can feel my heart. Tomorrow a new day arises and I thank God for surrounding me by good people, who cares for me deeply and are with me with all their hearts and their souls.





Tomorrow I'll start to dissolve what doesn't belong to me anymore and be happy. Tomorrow. Thank you Universe. I Love YOU! I feel I'm not alone anymore, the clouds are going away and YOU are supporting me in every up and down I have! Now, I can feel it despite knowing you were always here for me/my heart/my soul.

Friday, 7 October 2011