... and today I felt a perfume next to me in my room, which came just God knows from where. It was a beautiful perfume, masculine and so familiar at the same time. I can not remember from where I know it but it is not mine. I even smelled myself to make sure I wasn't dreaming.
I suppose someone was here, I suppose someone is around or about to appear...

I know this perfume from somewhere but I just don't remember where....

Ready to embrace 2012 with LOVE, PROSPERITY, DIVINE CONECTION... and ready to write you tomorrow from the capital of Bangladesh with my heart!

Time has passed and I've been growing in proportions that I still don't realize.

Today, I decided or allowed myself to reunite the pieces of the puzzle which is life. And I cried.

All the prophecies I've been receiving in my life show me the same, that my heart belongs to a place and to a energy which I recognized as mine once. Once and forever.

Everytime I try to turn my head to another side to do not see the signs I realize that life brings me again the same sign. I need to see it. I want to see it. With my heart and soul. 

So, I let go my fear and my ego in the present moment and I open my heart, again and forever, to feel...

That's the only way I know how to live, that's the only way I deeply feel it worth to live!

Choreographing...

Preparing myself to visit my country within 2 weeks where I will enjoy the company of my beloved family, pets and TRUE friends! I can't wait, to be honest, to step out the plane and hug the ones I love. I can't wait to listen my language, eat my mum's food, sleep on my bed with my cat purring, lie down on the sofa and laugh till my stomach hurts!!

Yes, I miss my family, my friends and my roots too much and 2 weeks left seem like eternity despite feeling that it will pass like a hurricane!

I'm also preparing 2 beautiful workshops in my country... and where it comes the problem: choreographies!

I really love to dance, give me a music, let me feel it with all my soul and I dance it with my heart. Choreographing it's one of my headaches I must admit. Everytime I have to do it, I study the music and I pratice over and over again and everytime what I do is different, every step changes because every second of existence is different! So this is my headache that I'm willing to overcome and enjoy! I'll turn this headache to a beautiful choreography that I hope to inspire everybody... and myself!

About RESPECT and other things...

Another day I experienced a sad situation. I took a taxi to drive me to a  place very near my house. It was a little bit cold and windy and that was the main reason why I took the taxi. After trying to negotiate the price we headed off to our destination when we had an accident. It was a very small accident, the cars just hit each other softly, not a bid deal for me.

Unfortunatelly, the driver who was in front of us didn't think the same way. He was national from this country and he just came out of the car, opened the taxi driver's door and asked the taxi driver to show him his licence while he was being rude and almost violent with him. I was watching everything quietly from my seat asking myself what is going wrong with these people...

I'm sure what the poor taxi driver was feeling at that moment. When I came out the car I could see his face. 

I felt sorry for him because I know who rules in this country and for sure most of the time it's not RESPECT but only rich people (whom I believe, are so rich that they just have money).

I thought about this for too long, trying to find answers for the rude behaviour of that man and I couldn't. I thought about the poor man... just God knows what is going to happen with him because he had an accident with a local person. 

I just hope God protect him from unfair destiny...

Lately I've been very busy with all Christmas preparations! 

Planning Christmas night/day with my friends/family in Doha, choosing new recipes to do, last ingredients to buy etc - the same as I was in my country!

It's a new phase in my life, first year without my family near me physically and celebrating Christmas with who I feel like my family in a new country.

I'm celebrating this Christmas in a different way and at the same time in the same way!

I celebrate Christmas because I love the lights on the streets and the way my heart feels warm. I love Christmas because we all stay together on the table to have dinner or lunch talking and laughing and because we simply stop ourselves just to celebrate life! For me Christmas is about love, union, peace... it's about family and friends! 

For this reason when I thought about Christmas presents I thought about all my friends, despite their religion or nationality. I gave present to Muslim friends, Catholic friends or I don't believe in religion friends!

My message for Christmas is very simple:

We all are ONE.

God/Universe/Mother Earth never punish you, never separate you from your brothers and sisters no matter what religion they may follow, because all religions teach you to love each other.

We are all ONE and GOD is UNIT and LOVE.

I wish you all a fantastic Christmas FULL of LOVE, PEACE, PROSPERITY and BLESSINGS.

Ps: I even gave a present to my flatmate who is trying to play a game with me called "Let's see who is the witch here". Because I do believe I shouldn't enter the game because I'm not a player anyway, instead, I'm trying to show her that I do not care about games in my life, just love. 

And by this I'm trying to not get affected by her energy.... I just give love and continue to treat her well and try to bring her to her heart...

All human being is looking for the same.

It doesn't matter your background, social level, nationality, religion or color. 

We all seek for ourselves and for LOVE. Every second of our lives.

We are all the same, in every point/part of the world.

Listening Adele and feeling homesick can be a good combination in those moments when I deeply feel I need to open my heart...

Today, after having fun with my family through the webcam I ended my night wrapping the presents I bought from different parts of the world in these short and long 3 months and a half working as flight attendant in a middle eastern airline company. I was wrapping the presents and imagining their happy faces seeing the presents just because I remembered them... and I cried because I wanted their company with me this Christmas and I miss them so much!

More than wrapping presents I was wrapping pieces of my love to them, putting a lot of good thoughts in it. Just the Universe knows how much is difficult to manage sometimes and everytime I stop to think about my family, pets and friends I want to run to my country right away to hug and kiss the ones I love.
Not just the ones who live in my country but also the ones who live in other countries and that I secretly care  about in the same proportion I care about my family....

All my adventures, all the experiences and all the beautiful places that I've been during these short months make think about my family and those I love, about how much I want to share these beauties with them, to fill their hearts as I fill mine as an artist and person! The reason why I moved to the Middle East, although not the country I always thought about was very simple. I wanted to see the world and grow, as much as I could. I felt the need of growing so much that I decided to try! I must admit that it has been a difficult and joyful journey so far... more than seeing different places I've seen different people, with different way of thinking and habits. I met bad people and the most amazing people and I feel the most blessed person on earth for that!

I'm grateful for my beautiful family (pets included) and my adorable friends in PT and here. I just have to be grateful for everything because even in the darkest moments when I think for seconds that I'm alone, the Universe sends me a LIGHT. God and All the Angels are with me helping me in every battle I face, in every moment of sadness I feel, filling my heart with Love and Strenght, filling my soul with all the HAPPINESS I (we) deserve!

I should be used to this but the fact is that everything which is BIG happens when I'm not in my country. 

Life can not stop and all the BIG events happen when I'm outside.

Since I moved to Doha my life has been a mix between a rollercoaster and the extreme opposite boring, but there are events I can not forget as part of my life while living here:

The wedding of one of my best friends plus another wedding from a very dear friend

My sweet friend's pregnancy

My auntie goodbye to the physical world

The moving for good of a friend of mine, a beautiful dancer, to her country.

Sometimes it's just difficult to deal with every single situation... when I'm trying to reborn from one situation, other arrives to make me even more human while I'm struggling to open my heart more and more at the same time. Nothing has to be a drama but in fact I can feel that cycles are closing and opening, old charpters closing to open new ones.

I just wish I could just take a deep breath, relax and remind myself that I also deserve a break from time to time. And that's what I'm going to do.

For the love of my life: oriental dance!

I know I've going through a lot and I've been quite absence lately but today I died and reborn as NEW! Sometimes, we have to go deep in our dark corners and check what is happening. How can I forget you, oriental dance? How can I ignore part of me which is you? I can not. The answer is simples: I can not. If I ignore you I ignore myself, all my soul, essence, heart so today I decided that the journey starts again, always up, always brigther. I'm sorry for my absence. I came back for good :)

Suddenly when writing the last post I saw myself having babies and being amazingly happy!

I add this vision to the recurrent situation I've been found myself lately as touching my ring finger in my right hand looking for something (ring??). I guess the Universe wants to tell me something and I didn't get it yet! The most funny thing is that I really search for something on my finger without realizing it, just after some good seconds I look to my hand and find this happening! Hmmmm... everytime I see it I just remember what I read in one of my last books :)

Life is funny!

I never fail, I always learn!

With mine, yours, our childish smile!